lovingarkin’s blog

is it really bad if i expect?
damn,i did.
why not,right.
how will i know if he is for real?
he called up
and at one point i feel the spark
whatever..,it was a damn thing..
he ask for a chance to connect again
and i said yes
now i waited for his response
yet it was a lie
he didn't even bother
it wasn't nice at all
for there was a time that i text his number
then voila a message asking who am i?
crazy bastard!!
i was so humiliated yet
learned a lesson..
i should have analyze first
i shouldn't believe him easily
but that thing happened instantly..
now i want to make a comment on his fs
just to say how freak he is
but then i stepped back
for he now has a family
i just thought that when he called up he was just undecided
and just need someone to talk to

i am happy to find out that he was able to put up a family of his own
that was his wish
and i am not ready for it
i wish him good luck

and i don't regret anything..
it's just that
there was pain..
maybe because there was no final closure

after what happened
i am ready to let go..
promises and dreams remains
and love is trying to run now
somehow i am happy now
that finally i am letting go..

two months after..

my bestfriend went abroad.

i am left here sobbing..

i don't want her to leave but this is for her family..

i miss her so much

it's not manila

it's a plane away..

and need more cash to go there, i don't have many

i did'nt go with her to the airport

i just stayed here, texting and bidding her goodbye

she texted me yesterday saying she can now use her roaming number

the problem i got no load

i wish i can go there

but she said we will see again in Canada

that's not too soon

but at least there are hopes

by the way i am studying again

i am taking up caregiver course

my couz said it will be easier for me to go abroad and work if im a certified caregiver

i don't know if this what i like

i am just trying it out

and following orders.

i wish someday we'll see each other again

and i hope i can go to Canada and be able to have a stable work for me and for my family

now i just go with the flow

may GOD always guide me

till next time!!

bye.

i am disappointed and sad this morning yet after crying for hours i realized i shouldn't send any hate email to my sister for we might misunderstand each other more and will worsen the situation.
rather i just try to calm down and i did.
the start of my day wasn't good but at the end of it i am now relieved.
thanks to my patience i didn't blow off, i was able to control my temper that's why i learned to be kind today hahaha.
just that I'm happy again.
till next time.
ciao!

its been quite sometimes since i visit this site.. sadly but i was lazy to open my account!!
i've been playing different games in facebook that's why i have the hard time posting new blog in here..
i just remember now,what if i will post one again and im doing it now.
nothing change to me it's just tha i think im going back to my old positive self. and that im back with GOD
i am learning new things about HIm and that i opened my heart to welcome HIM.
i am so happy to do that for i have been away from HIM for a long time.
now i enjoy doing activities to learn HIS life through the scriptures or HIS words
 i love it so much and i am enjoying the company of my new christian friends.
though sometimes i there things i can't understand still i am trying to be patient and be open with what they are teaching me. GOD uses this people to create a new me. right now i am trying my best to change my old self. and i am also trying my very best to understand people and to understand myself.

i've got issues that i still can't resolve but with faith in HIM and with his guidance i know there are answers soon. i just keep on praying and talking to HIM to clear my mind and to be enlightened.
i still haven't give up my main religion though but i am open to understand both or the differences of each religion.
my faith is deeper for HIM so whatever religion is that what's important is i have faith in HIM!!

thank you for all the blessing and for enlightening me.
now i am sure that i will soon achieve everything i want.
thanks for redeeming us from sins and thank you for saving us.
thanks you for our lives and the lives of all the people who loved me.
thank you that you welcome me again.

praise GOD!!
thanks for the love!!

Yesterday was National "Make Up Your Own Holiday" Day. If you could create any holiday, what would it be?

i would create a no work-all-day holiday!! crazy unrealistic yet it will somehow lessen stress to all people, or a worry free holiday for all people who worry too much!! haha ang taba ng utak!

what can i say
just attended my god daughter's graduation
ahmmp she was the brightest student!!
we were so excited that we almost miss it
but then we are in a hurry to go to the gym
to take pictures and lots of memories
wahahah
ang arte..
asar lang the introduction for the guest speaker
it was soooooo loooong
i almost sleep.
then the speech was so boring, i didn't even want to listen
twas a disrespect but what should i do
she's narrating everything that she did..
it was not interesting at all
the enlightening part uhm the end of her story hehehe
then the program take place hooray their calling their names, their giving diplomas and awards..
twas an exhausting day but a great day for lia..
thanks GOD i love lia that i stayed there..
congrats lia bebe !! love you mwuahmwua..

happy new year!!
i just realize i haven't post anything about the new year
it was so late but then it was still January ha ha
better late than never right?!
happy new life
happy new me
or happy new plans..
happy new ideas
happy new things to do
happy new friends
happy new things to try
happy new people to meet
happy new courage
happy new faith
happy new confidence to build up
happy new poems
happy new words to write in here
happy new months to enjoy
happy new age coming?! i don't think about that now,ahem too early?!
happy birthday to all celebrants
happy new year to everyone!!
good luck to me and to all the people around me!!

months of waiting
it's almost a surprise for us
been gathering zips
been waiting phone calls
they did
but just a bit
slowly days gone by
and am starting to think
what would be their plans?
are they going to just knock at our door?
or just ride a bus and then stop at the computer shop
waive then smile and yell were here!!!
last week of January
i finally have the guts to say their coming home
and then Saturday morning,
i saw her, and waive to her
i gushes she smiled at me
i can't seem to notice
where is he?
then after a while i saw the wheelchair
and he was there
i called him up
and say tay, tatay!!
and he looked at me..
then that was it they were here
back home..

23 days to go and it's Christmas..

it was a dry, lonely and penniless
i was excited 4 months ago
but now that it was near

problems are present
expectations exists
no one bothers
i just try to smile
whenever i can

less importance
less decorations
less food
less gifts
what else?
none!

it was the coming of Jesus
catholics are waiting
politics been arguing a lot
what should i do
none,
it is the longest celebration
and i hope it won't stop

colorful
lights
Christmas lanterns
happy
sales,inexpensive things
lots of money needed for godchildren who visits you
hide? why..
that's what they do..
what else?

crisis
all over
gasoline is going down
but traffic had been so heavy
bread was expensive
fare wasn't slowing down
society's problem
my problem?
how, i care!
what can i do,?

it's near Christmas but
all i can do is to wait!

just lovin the new trend in books, ahm love the red streaks of bella that i wanna try doin it on my hair, also i love the gothic theme of bella in twilight twas very appealing that i love to color my nails like her..haha i was so amazed of how a vampire story click with the so called high-tech environment now?! the love story of a true blooded vampire and a normal girl was a craze all over, fans were so in love with the new twilight movie and so ga-ga over the books. i want to get one for myself soon, so i will understand it more.
 
i am happy with the new craze and are we over harry?!
the last movie is due next year, i am not excited at all for harry is now old, i like more when he was still a young boy,

for now lwt us be addicted with edward cullen and bella's love story! though i am thankful that cho chang is now out because i just don't like her, ryan's brothers are a hottie at hogwart, then there's hermiogne who was so beautiful and much more stunning now. let's just wait for the last movie of harry to come soon, .